In the past month I have started doing the following behaviours I’ve never really done before:
* grinding my teeth (I have done this before, but never as frequently or as persistently as now)
* scowling (I have to remind myself to smile, I can literally feel the weight of my cheeks being dragged down by gravity)
* holding my breath (not kidding — I’ll be doing the dishes or something equally banal and suddenly realize I’m not breathing)
* kicking Paul out of bed (not steamrolling, but actually pushing him with my hands and feet while in a deep slumber and unaware)
We will not get into the “eating with wild abandon issue” as that goes back to October and is not a new behaviour. I fully expect all of these physical manifestations of my stress to disappear when Paul gets a new job — but when is that? And how many more bizzare things will I be doing by then?