Resolutions and other things

I’ve seen this comic and a couple similar memes go around this week. A friend pontificated this morning about the metaphor, that a musical resolution comes from dissonance and how our own resolutions should reflect the same. 

I’ve been struggling with setting resolutions this year, I don’t remember ever having such difficulty. Can I think of things I want to do better? Sure I can! But the list is so long. I don’t know how to narrow it down. I’m missing focus. 

Starting from dissonance makes sense to me. When I start there I can easily see that almost all of my problems from the past two years stem from my self esteem being at an all time low. There are many factors that have influenced this, primarily being the massive flux of  hormones  from the pregnancy and the postpartum period. I can’t do anything about that except hope that as I stabilize and my little one {hopefully, please!} learns to sleep I can turn things around. 

The problem is the hormones set off a spiral that I need to unwind. 

Everyone talks about cutting the toxic people from your life, those who make you feel badly about yourself instead of building you up. But what if some of those people who break you down are those you can’t cut from your life? Well if I could value myself enough to not let every little thing get me down then I think I could survive the people who are currently no good for my health. 

So I guess this year my goal is to love myself. 

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One Response to Resolutions and other things

  1. feathersky says:

    ❤ I sure hope you can get more sleep this year and everything evens out and gets easier!

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