You know in the scriptures the stories of people forced to endure very difficult things, but because of their faith and the grace of God, their burdens have been made light? It has been three months, three weeks, and one day since Paul was laid off, and on nearly every single one of those days I have likened myself to those of old whose burdens had been made light. The Lord did not immediately say, “you’re right, you’re too good of a people to be enslaved, I’ll just free you” (or whatever the current problem was) but He instead gave them the strength and power to endure their trials with a light heart.
It is such a blessing that our family has been able to carry on as cohesively as we have during this difficult time. We are still happy. We are still ourselves. (Okay, I’ll admit I’ve been indulging in more emotional eating but I am totally okay with that! If it helps me keep things together, then it’s a reasonable sacrifice.) It is hard for the boys to know that Daddy is home but that he can’t play, but they are dealing with it, and it is hard for us as parents to answer Little Red at the end of the day — when Paul comes downstairs after another long day of job searching and Little Red asks, “did you find a job yet?” Or when he says, “your job can be playing with me,” but we are blessed. We are so blessed. Life goes on, and so do we.
Economies go in cycles. Four years ago when Paul and I insisted, “this cannot continue, this is an unsustainable market,” people poo-pooed us and told us that things were only going up, that we had solved the problems of old and the way of the future was eternal progress. Just as the market had to come down (and is still coming down, and will for a while,) the market will just as surely rebound. I don’t know when, no one does, but we will not be like this forever.
The trick, of course, is staying afloat in the meantime.
I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t know that we won’t be moving in with someone else before all of this is over. I don’t know where the winds will drop us. And I don’t know what we will do if we are still looking for a job in October when our unemployment benefits run out. I’m not worried, though. I know the market will turn around. I know my husband is a very hard worker, is really smart, and is employable; he will have a job again and he will be a great asset to the company. I know the Lord knows our situation and that we have not been abandoned. We have been so very blessed and I know it’s just the beginning.